Randomness
Friday, April 30, 2010 11:31 PM
guess what i eating?
my colleague thought i was eating rare tofu..
nay....It's a soya dessert..
it's like jelly but made of soya bean..
my new fav. snack..healthy!~
primary sch canteen makes me feel like a kid again
please don't leave me!
I AM BECOMING A SHOPAHOLIC!!
I love buying new things=X
clothes...endless pretty clothes=)))))
pictures to cheer the soul
Thursday, April 29, 2010 11:05 PM
LOL..adorable or what?
my little pot of love..
everlasting flower, everlasting love..
my motivation at work!
cute right???
wish when we are old, we are like tht..
still smiling blissfully
cute right?????
everytime i look at this pic..i makes me wanna laugh..
friends...where are they? =(((
What a day~~
Wednesday, April 28, 2010 9:46 PM
Thank God i survived a day at work today
and also managed to give 4 hrs tuition at night..
struggled to survive the morning with
bad cramps, fainting spells, vomitting..
felt almost like half dead..
said alittle prayer..God relieved my pain~
but a terrible headache came..
till nw..it's still here..terrible pain~
it feels like it's ribbing a head apart..
and worse of all..it was raining heavily
when i was going from school to tuition
all drenched..what a day..
but i still thank God, it could have been worse..
Shall rest early tonight~
Headache go away=(((~~
take care earthlings~
take care of ur health, dun fall sick..
P.s. " Honour ur father and mother" i read it 3 times in diff parts of a book,
which i was randomly reading. I guess tht was God's answer to me..
bleeding love..
Tuesday, April 27, 2010 5:42 PM
u have never make me feel loved..
u always make me feel miserable..
unworthy and worthless..
u have never given me a pinch of happiness
nor a happy memory
only gave me sadness, fear, a broken heart and unhappy childhood memory..
u even took away my self-esteem..
sometimes i wonder why am i always considering about ur feelings
when u don't even care abt mine..
all u cared about was money and control
why am i letting u control me and the way i live..
even the things i do..
i m nt a robot, but a human..with feelings...
i could never able to do what i wanted to do..
u never gave me an support nor encouragement..
worse, u even give me discouragement..
u never even cared about my basic needs..
u never treated me well..never the best u can give nor do..
it is even worse when i can't hate u..
i know u don't love me..
because u hate even the sight of me..
yes..maybe i owe u my whole life..
if it was not for u, i wouldn't be here..
but if i had the choice as a baby
i wld prefer to rather starved to death then..
don't make me feel guilty..
i hate to say this...
i never felt like i had a family...
i rather be an orphan..
i am tired of convincing myself
u actually cared, only in the wrong way..
i don't wanna lie to myself it didn't mattered..
everyday..the hurt is growing bigger n deeper..
and i don't know what to do..
I wanna leave here!
i wanna be free~
what is it tht is holding me back?
since no one cared..
God, can i be selfish for once? It's so hard to love _ _ _.
cause it's emotions taking me over...
Monday, April 26, 2010 10:02 PM
MAGIC POWER-我是誰 我是誰 我是誰
Tuesday, April 20, 2010 12:01 AM
我是谁
你是否常常这样问自己
我是谁
总是活在别人的期望里
我是谁
是谁又擅自帮你定义了
你是谁
只有不是自己才安全
为什么
你以为这个世界很美丽
为什么
你爱这个世界胜过爱自己
为什么
这个世界不给你平等待遇
到底做错了什么
*朋友都说你太 太 太奇怪
在背后把你当成笑 笑 笑话看
每一个动作都被瞎猜
他们说你是个不能容忍的存在
你想要的很 很 很简单
不过就是最普通的 的 的平凡
诚实做自己有时候很难
但是请你勇敢的试一次看看
**无论他们又说什么
闲言闲语无法伤害我
世界上只有一个我
没人能代替的我
无论他们又做什么
小动作无法打败我
我知道自己是最美丽的
会不会
上帝把你的灵魂放错了身体
会不会
是故意整你不是不小心
会不会
你常常都觉得力不从心
会不会
坚持要做自己太危险
凭什么
难道比较特别就是不对
凭什么
先下了注解在认识之前
凭什么
只不过想认真的活一遍
凭什么
随便就把人定罪
我是谁
这个问题困扰你多少天多少夜
我是谁
谁有资格决定你怎样才是对
我是谁 我是谁我是谁
我就是我你就是你
认真做自己的人最美丽
P.s. Don't be too hard on yourself, be true to yourself.=)
Love this song~! Everyone is specially created by God!
Let hati Sing again
Monday, April 19, 2010 11:17 PM
Help Hati
The restoration work in Haiti is massive -
it's estimated to take at least 10 years.
Will these people stand up again?
Will they sing again? Let's stand up for those who can't stand.
Support Let Haiti Sing Again charity concert
as Christian performers come together
to try to raise S$100 000 for the restoration work in Haiti!
Donation tickets are priced at only $10 each,
but you're welcomed to donate more.
All funds raised will be channeled to World Vision Singapore,
the beneficiary of this project to support their ongoing relief work in
Haiti.
I gonna support! Hope u can do a part too?
check out more at this website:
my battle field in sch
10:34 PM
back to sch with my new hairstyle..
and it seems to be getting lots of attention=.=
my students and teacher colleagues
were like O.O when they see my hair..
some even gave shocked faces because they say i look totally diff
is like i am totally another person
diff.kinds of comments were given..
"teacher, why u cut your hair"
"your hair looks weird"
"cher, u look older"
" cher, u look scarier, like ghost"
" i thought u were miss seah's twin sister.."
etc..n many more..
alright..i met my objective of my hair cut
which was to have a totally diff new look.
but i think maybe i have over-done it..=.=
today sch was like a battle field..
i wonder why alot of kids nowadays
have serious anger management issues
they can easily not happy, jiu fight or use violence..
the anger can cause them to change from an innocent child
to become a crazy little gangster..super scary..
sometimes their strength is even greater than mine..
i have seen many of them like this
and it is really disheartening..
they have even brought out in me
a super fierce and scary teacher for the first time..
i have always been the super nice teacher..
patient & tolerant
but ever since i met such students..
no way i will give in and be "nice"
u show no respect, u will not get any respect from me
don't mess around with me!
it guess i have be like this, or else..
they may injure each other & land in hospital..
but i still hope i can use love to change them
their personality is good,
it's only their attitude n behaviour that really piss me off..
but i understand it's not easy being a kid..
many of them have family problems, pressure from society,peer influence.etc
poor kids..
God, please teach me how to teach them to be good children!
they are really challenging kids..
P.s. Did u realise that STUDYING is "study" and "dying" combined?
God bless the children.
Show love to the kids.
New hair, different me
Friday, April 16, 2010 5:34 PM
bought the gift for meet-the-parent session..
super expensive tea=X
finally went to cut n dye my hair
byebye to my old hair-style
black is back..bangs is in..& i m lovin it!
finally friday is here..weekends is near! hoho!
long awaited day..finally can see him!=D
Have a great weekend earthlings! GOD BLESS!
I hate change..still gotta live with it
Thursday, April 15, 2010 9:15 PM
i m changing unconsciously..
not a girl anymore but still not yet a woman
but starting to think, talk and act like an adult already..
i hate the change..it's complicated being an adult!
recently i got the sudden urge or impulse to many things:
1) cut & dye my hair NOW!
2) eager for in-line skating! wanna skate more..
3) take up musical instrument lessons (guitar or piano?)
4) Learn dancing??
5) Go overseas!!!
6) do some volunteering work/social work..
7) Do something special for Beloved!
8) Meet my friends! hang out..
9) Buy new clothes..change my dressing sense..
10) See him like right here, right now!
i miss beloved,the old me and friends...
God bless! love you!
i know u have been reading my blog secretly right?
haha..always knowing all the things i didn't tell u=X
caught u!
nights earthlings!=)
Show love to others=)
Friday, April 9, 2010 10:40 PM
wake up, go work,eat, home, slack, sleep..
it's like a circular repetition.
same routine that happens over and over again..
today,a little voice in me prompted me~
is there any meaning to life when I continue living like this?
I thought for a moment..and i now understood
what the little voice has been trying to tell me~
Rather than being a prisoner of life's reptitive cycles,
I need to reexamine my life and priorities...
Many times we are so busy with work
or things to be done~~
tht we overlooked/neglect or forget to show care/concern/love
to the people around us or even the people that matters so much to us
for me...I am totally guility of it..
eversince i started working..
I have become self-centered
I always say i am busy with work..
that i don't have time even to reply a sms from beloved...
don't time to talk to my colleagues..
to think of it~~I realised it is just excuses??
Even in the staff room..everybody seems to busy with their own things..
tht they don't even bother saying "Hi" to one another...
But nw something came to light..
is work more important than relationships?
is work more important than friends, family or beloved?
Whatever tht is more important or matters most..I think we shd make or find time for them..I think I should learn to take time to do little things
to show love and concern or even help those around me~~
even little little things do warm up or brightens a person's day
e.g. write an encourage note to a colleague?give a friend a treat?
learn to remember people's name or make time to get to knw them better?
isn't this so much more meaningful than just thinking about getting work done..
there's is more meaning when u are able to something for them
and make them happy~
"I know there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live"
Ecclesiates 3:12
What can I do good for someone today?
time to spread the love~~
Take care n God bless!=)
P.s. Life may be monotonous at times. But it is never without purpose or meaning..
New favourite pass time
Thursday, April 8, 2010 9:35 PM
I made a new discovery!!
PPstream!!
it's so much better than youtube or mysoju
check it out:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/PPStreamit's definately 10times better! so much choices!
like a build-in TV on a laptop!! so cool...
loads super fast..no need to wait for it to load..
dun need to see in parts like youtube
and so many shows and channels
and and the best part is you can watch shows
tht were broadcast yesterday
on international channels..
cool!i can watch all my fav shows/drama with ease!
only problem wld be~~all words are in chineseXD
~~i am loving it~~
God bless!
I love my Job!!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010 11:25 PM
Many reasons to be happy about my job:
1)having more holidays than others
because of school holidays in addition to public holidays
2) having lots celebration means day off in school
children's day, total defence, sport,s day, teacher's day....it's endless
And celebration means there is buffet lunch for teachers!=D
3) Interaction with kids, i love it!
kids sometimes do and say the cutest things.
I am doing what i love~~helping kids
4) cheap food in school canteen!
5) own time own target..a space to urself..no one to check on u!!
u basically can do ur own things! but just make sure work is done=)
6) Good pay!
and so on~~~i am lovin it~~~
GOD IS GOOD!!
No one is perfect!
10:41 PM
Would God Want to Hang Out with a Bad Person Like Me?CBN.com – Hey, none of us are perfect. In fact, the only perfect person was Jesus Christ.
We all fall short of the Glory of God (Romans 3:23) and have sinned.
For a long time I didn’t like that word “sin” but it became a whole lot more palatable
when I understood it didn’t mean I committed heinous acts, but simply made mistakes,
and these mistakes or lack of perfection, (which is unattainable for all of us humans ),
separated me from God. No matter how hard I try, I will never be perfect.
No one’s perfect, not even Christians, and don’t let them tell you they are.
I also thought the Bible was full of perfect people and only those people were “qualified”
to have relationships with God, but in fact that is also not true.
The Bible is full of imperfect people
(Moses and David, for example, were considered pillars of faith) who did sin,
but still had close relationships with God.
Perfection has never been a pre-requisite to hang out with God,
only a desire to meet and know Him.
But since we are all human, we do like to put on a “good face” and
make it seem (or pretend) like everything is just fine.
It’s kind of like when someone asks you how you are and you answer “fine”
but in reality your world is crashing down around you.
It seems easier just to wear the mask, or put on the “perfect act.”
People are fallible human beings, regardless of their faith affiliation.
In addition to Moses and David, there are lots of stories in the Bible about
all kinds of folks with checkered pasts and poor decisions,
many of which I can identify with;
stories of lust and greed, promiscuity and hanging out with the wrong crowd.
But the great news is that God loves me anyway, and wants me to be His best friend.
No matter how “bad” you think you think you are God would love to hang you with you.
By Kathy Pride
Check this out:
http://www.cbn.com/spirituallife/questionsaboutgod/p.s I am not perfect but God still loves me anyway!=)Same for u~
GOD IS GOOD!
what shd i do with my hair???
Tuesday, April 6, 2010 11:07 PM
my hair is ulgy nw~
out of form..
what shd i do with it??
cut short?
cut fringe?
dye it black or brown?
let it grow n curl?
i seriously need to do something with it..
but what?
Inspiration spark!
Is someone asks about your christian hope, always be ready to explain it.
But do this in a gentle and respectful way.
1 peter 3:13-17
Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen;
it gives us assurance about things we cannot see .
Hebrews 11: 1
Nights earthlings!
God bless!
Cute dragon~
Monday, April 5, 2010 10:56 PM
the movie is far above my expectation
its really good!!
and toothless is so cute!!!
P.s. Fear nothing, but God.
One step at a time~
Sunday, April 4, 2010 10:33 PM
Weeeeee.....
had our first in-line skating class today~
it was FUN!!
looking forward to next lesson..=))
i aim to skate like a professional!=X
i hope i can=D
beloved n I are aiming to skate the whole of East coast park
after we finish the lessons.XD
I am hoping tht pay day to faster come!quick!
i m broke~but thank God i have beloved=D
Embrace the wonders of living~
there are many reasons to believe christ is real, alive n living~
tht's why we have Easter sunday~
it's nt abt bunny nor abt eggs
it is about a risen Lord who died for u & me~
have u ever wondered why so many believers are willing to suffer and die for christ?
many believers esp. the jews around the world
are tortured, persecuted n condemned
and some even killed because of their faith
but what make them hold on so dearly to their faith?
tht they are willing to die for their claims..
no human would chose pain n suffering isit?
isit easier for them to deny christ?
they must have experienced God
or know/be so certain tht he is real
that they are willing to die for what they believe to be the truth
why would anyone die for something tht is a lie?
He is real..
Being contented
Saturday, April 3, 2010 8:10 PM
Today beloved n I was suppose to go do my hair
but the kimage sch was closed...so change of plans
After lunch, decided to go shopping to get beloved's bag
but in the end..we didn't get his bag..
instead all the things we bought were all my things=X
bought 4 clothes!! small umbrella..all i like~
half way through walking, one of my sandals broke..
maybe it's a blessings in disguise..
because this gives me chance/excuse to buy new shoe=X haha
thank you beloved~
I think in life~ the secret to happiness n having joy
is just simply just being contented/happy with what we have
and being thankful to God for everything around us~
because in life...
If we keep thinking of things what we don't have
or being envious of what other people have..
the comparing list of things will be endless..
because what u may have, other people may nt have~
or u may think life will be better or good if I had this or that..
or we think if things go our way...all will be well..
or we keep thinking our unlucky, sad and miserable our life is ..
Life may always seems "greener on the other side"
but it's nt always the case...
a man may have everything: riches, position, frame, money..
can enjoy everything tht is on earth..but maybe his heart may be empty~
he may become proud, arrogant, he may slowly not treasure what he has..
and wants even more~
and what good will it do when at the end of the day, he loses his soul...
I am contented with all that i have~
a good job, have good income, have a gd boyfriend, n many many more things..
the list is endless..
and mostly importantly is....
I have a good God!=P
tht's the best part!
I am happy n thankful for u!! yes..u..whoever that is reading this~
may u have the same joy n happiness~
For me..
though life maybe full of trouble
but i know God is there..
and will bring me through
nothing will I fear nor be afraid nor worry=)
God bless!
Good Friday! Long day~
12:06 AM
churched~
when screened our youth production video
I was surprised tht there were ppl tht was touched by it
and cried~glad it did bring the message across..
was happy tht many ppl said we did a good job..
Glory to God!! thanks u jeremiah for editing the video!!
all of u did a great job too!!
Afterwhich beloved and I went town to buy present n shopping
Then head down in the evening to nat's hse to celebrate his birthday~
there were many many strangers
i was pretty frustrated
when i was left all alone inside blowing balloons
with a group of strangers...
while beloved was outside doing other stuff..
hmmmpp..
but aftertht was ok~
i still love him=P
but was thinking maybe i shdn't have gone~
beloved's buddy, Nat's birthday~
watch this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA
i m dead tired nw~~zZZz
Goodnight earthlings
God bless u guys!!
Sports heat, girlfriends birthday, good food..April fool!
Friday, April 2, 2010 2:06 AM
Happy April fool's day!!!
today was pretty nice..
sleep till 9 plus..
shiok~
did my prayer time, longer than usual
it's nice starting it right~
today didn't have to wake up in wee hours
because it's my sch's sport's day~hoho
so only had to reach clementi stadium at 12 noon
it was fun~!i enjoyed talking with the kids...
took care of one the Pri 3 class, they are cute!
i love kids..their innocence..their warmth..
their open-ness..they can talk abt anything under the sun
The stadium was pretty chaotic...kids were constantly moving ard
they kept asking me when they will get their pedal..nw they are happy~
see..even kids have iphone!!!gosh..
look at them!
this boy is very cute..i like him..
he has been entertaining me the whole day
helped me do things..very good boy!
he says he wants to take a pic with his best friend..
Night time - Celebrate chinghui & Siti's bithday
dinner at Timbre at Substation
it's pretty nice place but it's was just too dark~!
can't even see the menu properly..
they need to put more lights?!!
The food was really good!
especially the pizza~
must try their pizza~
Bloody mojito~nt bad..i like~
yummy!!
i think i spent alot of money today~
but i enjoyed myself..
thank God for today~
Nights earthlings~
guess what i eating?
LOL..adorable or what?
my little pot of love..
everlasting flower, everlasting love..
cute right???
wish when we are old, we are like tht..
cute right?????
everytime i look at this pic..i makes me wanna laugh..
finally friday is here..weekends is near! hoho!
the movie is far above my expectation
see..even kids have iphone!!!gosh..
this boy is very cute..i like him..
he says he wants to take a pic with his best friend..
i think i spent alot of money today~
