Life is wonderful..

Tuesday, November 27, 2007 6:14 PM

LIFE IS UNPREDICTABLE

it's really sad..

tragedy happens even the mOst unexpected

jus like the dragon boat tragedy

='(

hv u wondered if today u are gone frm this world,

hw will the world remember u as?

or will u even be remembered by ppl in their hearts?

hv u lived yr life to the fullest today?

will u hv any regrets?

what are ur acheivements in life?

hv u been a happy person?

what are yr dreams?

or outlooks and principles in life?

if yr life is a movie,what would it be like?

i found a poem pretty meaningful=)

Always Live Life to the Fullest

Don't let go of hope,

Hope gives you the strength to keep going

When you feel like giving up.

Don't ever quit believing in yourself,

As long as you believe you can,

You will have reason for trying

Don't let anyone hold your happiness in their hands,

Hold it in yours, so it will always be within your reach.

Don't measure success or failure by material wealth,

But by how you feel,

Our feelings determine the richness of our lives.

Don't let bad moments overcome you,

Be patient, and they will pass.

Don't hesitate to reach out for help;

We all need it from time to time.

Don't run away from love but towards love,

Because it is your deepest joy

Don't wait for what you want to come to you.

Go after it with all that you are,

Knowing that life will meet you halfway.

Don't feel like you've lost,

When plans and dreams fall short of your hopes.

Anytime you learn something new,

About yourself or about life,

You have progressed.

Don't do anything that takes away,

From your self-respect.

Feeling good about yourselfIs essential to feeling good about life.

Don't ever forget how to laugh,

Or be too proud to cry,

Or too stubborn to smile.

Don't ever forget a friend who truly loves you,

As it could be that friend who is true to your needs.

Don't ever forget who helped you grow as your need

for more seeds may often re-appear.

With all the above, live life to it's fullest

"People fear death but it's the one's who live life to the fullest are the ones who embrace it and have no regrets."

Thursday, November 22, 2007 12:05 AM

pictUres piCures pictures pictures

suppose to be tatoo of three ultraman and one bad character

but the tatoo was lousy

loOked mOre like "bruised"

>.<

this is funny but kinda true

cute picture

(if love wAs jUs sO simple and innocence)

i wiSh i had a shOulder to lean on too>.<

if i cAn mAke a wiSh riGht nw..

jUs One..

i wiSh fOr ..

A HAPPY FAMILY

signifiance(status),self-wOrth,security is what i yearn for so mUch,because i feel like i have none.

i wish fOr acceptance,lOve n secUrity frm my fAmily..because i can't feel it..

i feel all alone,i can't feel the family bond nor love..

i jUs cAn't help it..sOmetimes i hAte myself sO much so much,because i feel it's all my fault

i choose to hate myself bacause i can't get things right

i feel rejected n unaccepted,i feel insecure,unloved..

i feel very sorry to God..i am feelin all tis shit again

i want to love my family,i yearn for closeness n concern n nOt controlling..

living all tis years with them,i told myself i don't want to be like them..

it's even sadder to say,friends are even closer to me than my family..

i thank GOd for blessing me friends.

friends are there for me in times of need,friends are the reasons for my smile

friends are the motivation tht i am surviving till today..

i don't need a big house to stay in..i don't need riches

all i wan is parents who care n love,

i rather stay poor,bUt have parents tht is there for me and they make me feel i m special n loved

even if i starve to death,i will die happy..

even with myself,i can't accept myself,low self-esteem..

because they make me feel like i dun deserve anything

i m jus so tired,i wish i would jus fade away..

everytime it's easy for me to get over with things..easy to forget..

i tell myself i have to be happyn positive..life still goes on..

there are other things tht i can treasure ..like my frenz..

but deep inside my heart is still emptiness tht nO man can fill..

underneath tht smile is a bleeding heart..

bUt smiles that i give to ppl around me is sincere and true

bacause i want the people around me to be happy=)

i need u,GOD

i need u to give me strngth,love and teach me ..

Wednesday, November 21, 2007 8:52 PM

20 Nov,Tues

A out dAy with bEst fren kEL>.<

mOrning wEnt sch dO fyp

then meet kEL at sp ard 2

tAke bUs 106 together to holland v..

actually wanted to bring her go try COLD ROCK iCe-cream..

bUt den blur us missed bUs-stOp

and landed at the nx stOp tht wAs miles away..lolz

hmmm..whEre am i?*lOst*

she hAs nO idea nEither..>.<

so in the end,

lazy to u-turn bAck

sO toOk 77 frm tht bus-stop to marina sq instead,

ate at a american restaurant "changing appetitiers"

had super-sized ice-mOcha with ice-crEam on top

bUt too powdery sO oni ate the icE-cream

shared a ''death by gummies'' mudpie with kel..

nt really niCe neither

after which kel said she feel like goin K-BOX!

it had been ages since i last went

sO we went!!! eventhough it was jus the twO of us..

kEl sAng english sOngs,shE has goOd vOice=)

me sAng alot of chinese emo songz=X

emo gal..=(

rihanna's UMBELLA was our favourite!!

tht was the first sOng and lAst sOng we sAng tOgether..

>.<

after tht,we walked and shopped ard,

the taffic tht day was messy,

had alot of traffic pOlice stOpin the traffic all a sudden

and signal cars to faster go n stuff,

guess it's was due to the asian thingy..

had a goOd and fun day with my bEst fren=)

Wednesday, November 14, 2007 7:50 PM

today sch organised a NUS talk

suppose to be a motivating talk promoting degrees in civil n environment

but to me n my frenz,

it was more of DEMORALISING than motivating

firstly,when they talked about the bright future we had ahead

as tht two sectors are increasing growin in demand

we were kinda like

hmm..nt bad..

but when they talked about the result requiremnt n the sch fees..

result requirement:MINIMUM GPA MUST BE At least 3 n above..

sch fees:$5000 per year,including all the expenses n stuff,totals up to $36000 for the course of study,

after listening to tht

felt like as though we were thrown down from cloud nine to the depths of the earth!

i think we can't even make it la,with our sucky results,

think also dun think abt gettin into Uni ba..

my theory:

NO GOOD RESULT

NO TALENT

NO MONEY

NO CCA

equals to

NO HOPE,NO BRIGHT FUTURE..

right now the thought of graudatin is scary,

firstly i dun even know where i will be headin to,

what i am doin to do..

or even worse

is there any doors opened for me,seems like none

or do i even have any choice,

with my nt-so-good results n nt-much acheivemnts in my sch life

can i even get a job?

the road ahead of me is so unsure

i don't even know where i am walkin

i seemed be lost

let things come naturally????

haiz..haiz..haiz..

Thursday, November 8, 2007 10:21 PM

Oh~happy day

pUbliC hOliday

nO wOrk,nO sch

meet jero at cck for breakfast cum lunch

den went watch THE GAME PLAN

thumbs up for the movie

very very nice..ratin 9.9/10..

heez..

funny,tOuchin n meaningful stOryline

i like that little girl in the movie

sweet,innocent n cute>.<

i wish i also can have a father like tht

sO coOl,sO rich,sO caring!!

*slapz*

stOp daydreamin n welcOme bAck to reality=(

after the movie,we went bugis

walk walk shOp shOp

see bags..

i bOught a blOuse n a flip-flop>.<

reach hOme ard 7 plus..

tiredz..

but still got lotz of assignment hvn't do=X

12:42 AM

i think m over-spending lately!!

i need more self-control!!

haiz

mon,went our wif classmates(we girls n wb,eugene)

shoppin

bought skinny pants

i was happi tht the cuttin could fit into my fat legs

tht i happily bought 3 pairs

white,black n peach=X

reach home den realise like over-buy ler..

but realise most of my money is spent on FOOD

like for example,

today..

after sch..

nOthing to do

so jc,zy,ling n i go slack n eat dinner

went to chocz cafe at BT shoppin centre ntuc slack

buy drink n chocolate muffin(nice) eat

talk talk

den went to hongkong cafe eat dinner

the food nt bad wor..

had crispy duck rice..

nice nice

jus like tht jiu spent ard $10++

tis month also got a few b'day present need to buy>.<

den lately also nv work much

den still got a list of things i wanna buy!

ok,priority first!

lately also been like always late for class in the morning=X

i MUST be on timE frm nw onwards!!

Monday, November 5, 2007 12:34 AM

oh hAppy dAy~

coOkin lesSOns at church wAs fUn

i knOw hw tO coOk chicken chOp ler>.<

i m pretty satisfied with my performance

wld rate my chicken chop 9/10

>.<

i can't wAit for the nx lesSon!!

i wan learn tO coOk mOre and all kinds of foOd

sO i can coOk for my future bf>.<

i wan to becOme a goOd wife whO can coOk for my husband to eat

=)hee

coOkin is tiring de lor

i was superbly tired on my way home after tht

once reach home ard 5

i straight away drop dead and fall asleep

awake ard 7 plus from a bad n weird dream..

feeling insecure again=(

but after seeking God's word

it really enlightened me alot=)

i realise i don't know u=(

Saturday, November 3, 2007 10:18 PM

SUSHI

mOnday me and lingling wEnt ling hse tO mAke sushi

made sushi rolls...

and...

The sushi family:fierce papa,pretty mama,smiley meimei n boyboy

taste good>.<

finally fuilfilled my promise>.<

personnal thoughts:

i realise i m sentimental nowadays

like i hv nO control over my emotions..

one moment..i can be huha..cheerful,jokin around n full of smiles

the next moment..u can will find me superbly quiet and down..

maybe it's because i m easily affected by people n surroundings.

tis week is already the third week of the sch

but i m still clueless abt my studies

totally blur abt what the teacher is teaching..

nv left sO lost before..

adding to it..

lotz of projectz n assignments on hand,

don't even know how to get started..

one part of me wished to faster finish my poly sch life,

another is fearing of finishin it

i am always strucken by sudden fear..

fear of the future!

i keep asking myself what is it i m goin to do after graduation

but can't seem to find the ans..

all i know is i m goin to work..

n people say the workin world is scary!

i find that i have changed

changed till i don't know myself sometimes.

sometimes i miss my old me..

the quiet me..

the one that hasn't have much emotionz n thoughtz

the one whose mind is always blank and empty

the boring yet simple me

the girl full of positive thoughtz..

COMPLICATIONS n CONTRIDICTINS

i HATE them

but many times they are jUs sO unavoidable..

ok..i am feelin all alone again..