Faith & Love
Tuesday, March 30, 2010 1:40 AM
"FAITH is not just believing
But it's about living
taking actions in what u believe in"
LOVE
The true/perfect and greatest beauty of love..
Eventful weekend
Monday, March 29, 2010 11:25 PM
28th March (SUNday)
It was lovely Xiao Dan's birthday!!=D
celebrated for her..
Afterwhich the youths spent the whole afternoon
practicing n perfecting the skit for Good-friday service
finally video-tapped the skit
well-done youths! you guys did a great job=)))
when u serve God,
U bring glory to God..
God will bless you guys
Some group pics below..
Wanying is missing though..
I really thank God for you guys...
because u guys have been a great encouragement..
As i looked at the youth cafe..
i feel very proud of you guys..
look at how we have transformed the cafe..
and all the things we have done..
it's really amazing..
Dinner time
treat ourself to good food
after a day of hard work=)))
I like the sky..it's beautiful n ever changing...
it is where the rainbow, stars, clouds, sun, moon are..
27th March (SAT) 
This is a money-eating machine..
be warned..stay clear=X
LoOK at the amount of sweets..O.O
their current gf is their PSP =.=
but i m sure they will find the "one"
U are the one i love always..
I will learn hw to communicate better..
Let's jia you together for our future!!
God bless~
Thank you Jesus!
Silent thoughts
Friday, March 26, 2010 10:52 PM
I am tired~
I don't know what's wrong..
I don't know what i did wrong
i don't think i deserve tht look from you
I don't think i deserve the tone of voice from you..
because i am nt the source of ur unhappiness
do u need to give me tht cold-shoulder?
I knw u are having a difficult time
but i feel helpless because i just can't do anything..
all i can say is only same old, few sentence to encourage u
fri weekends are suppose to be happy~
but i don't feel it anymore
u don't look happy to see me..
u don't seem to treasure the time spent..
you give me the black face..
I know u are unhappy n tired,but does it make u feel better being this way?
I wish i could make u feel happier..at least on weekends..
but it seems i can't..
most of the time u whine abt hw terrible n miserable ur XXXX life is..
i know..i can only listen..i wish i could do something..
but i only feel more miserable~
I try to make u think positive but i know i can't
the problem is there..u still have to face it..
I am glad u share your feeling and thoughts with me..
but please don't let ur unhappiness affect u~
i m tired...i don't know what to say anymore..
don't even know how to comfort u~
i hate the way u treat me today~
it makes me wonder whether i matter to u anymore
it seems ur problems matter to you more=(
Continue praying,
Have faith in God~
God bless u..
More of God, less of me~
Thursday, March 25, 2010 9:17 PM
To think of it..
I have been a christian for many years~
almost 10 years or more??
but to think of it..i feel ashamed..
because i realised I have not done much for God
neither have I been a good christian??
though i have been faithfully going to church
serving in my church
leading worship and leading the youths..
But as days goes by..i realised that I am doing it
because of it's a duty/responsibility rather than passion/love for God
slowly..sometimes the work of God become a chore..
and sometimes tiring
though i smile happily but
And deep within me is just emptiness..
because i don't knw what i am doing~
My bible is collecting dust at home
Prayers are said only when I feel like talking to God..
the faith was just on n off
sometimes hot, n many times cold
it is like a circle..
I move one step closer to God n
backslide 10 steps back..
and i have to restart my fire for God all over again..
It's a struggle..
u may ask me..den why hold on..why not let go of being a christian?
be a free-thinker..do whatever u like~
but my answer is NO, NO,NO
No..i wouldn't..i nv will or can nv let go of my faith..
why?
because
I know that Jesus is real..
he has performed many miracles
I have experienced him many times in my life
he has blessed me with many thingsand i can't run away from tht fact
I remembered back before i become a christian
I used to hide myself n cry alot..
I hated myself, I hated my life because I felt that
my life was meaningless n pointless..
my life during my childhood was like a nightmare
Somtimes when i wake up in the morning ..
i would cry...
insecurity, feeling rejected n unwanted, feeling unloved..
family was nt a home...
many times..at night..i wld cry till i fall asleep..
it was like my heart was broken/there was a big hole..
which was killing my soul...
I felt like dying...
but till I was in Pri6..
my aunt brought me to church...
the first thing..
I fell in love immediately with this God...
i didn't know much abt him but
I could feel him and his presence was awesome in church..
i love the church songs
I was given a bible by the church
every night..i will read it like a very interesting story book
I hungered to know him
I wld read n pray for hours n hours..
n i could feel him in my life..
sometimes when i pray
the next moment i see my prayers being answered
He worked in unimaginable way
everytime when i felt upset..i wld still cry..
but i wld pray..and there will be a unexplainable peace in my heart
I wld feel alright aftertht..
somehow like my sorrows have been taken from me..
slowly God has changed my life and my thinking
the bible became my connection with God
every time i read the bible..
it seems like he was talking to me..
the words was like directly speaking to me at that moment..
begining of my christian walk was like magical
God was with me..I enjoyed his presence..
He began blessing me with many things..
he helped me to stop sinning
he healed my broken heart
he helped me do well in my studies..
I was happy from the inside out...
many times i backslided..
there was even a time i wanted to give up on myself n God
but I knew i couldn't ...
In the end..I glad I didn't
because he is real..
he was like a closest friend, best heavenly father who was there for me
But i wasn't pleased with my christian life..
i was shy n afraid to share my faith with my friends
afraid that they will mock me..
I was only comfortable to share to those i was comfortable with...
I didn't allowed God to fully work in my life..
I didn't spend alot of time with God..
I didn't put God first in everything..
I did something terrible which i shdn't which i wanna repent today..
I decided i am gonna change for the better..
what made me had this reflection?
or what made me want to have a new committment with God?
I was reading vanness wu's blog..
yes..the popular F4 singer..unexpected?
and the actor of the current taiwan serial i am watching..
check it his blog out if u like
he is a strong christian..
and I am really touched n inspired by what he is doing for God..
and i feel ashamed..
so I wanna step up this committment
I wanna change the way I live my life..
I have been living for myself..
But today onwards I gonna live for God..
shine for God
and spread God's love..
from TODAY!!
till the day I die..
I wan more ppl to knw jesus..
because time is running out..
I wan everyone to go heaven
where God is=)
God loves u..God bless u all=) p.s..i can't believe i wrote so much=X
Inspiration
Wednesday, March 24, 2010 11:03 PM
currently i am watching this taiwan drama
Autumn's Concerto 下一站幸福
its really really very nice!!!
very well-written storyline, very good acting cast
(i am impressed by the cute little boy's acting)
i love it! 5/5
there are also many many inspirational quotes
in the show..
one of them is this:
In the very first episode of Autumn concerto
Mu Cheng says:
" Did you know...
One time when Bach was performing at a palace,
Someone purposely messed with his Cello, and so
All the stings were broken except for the G-string
Just when everyone was waiting to see him be humiliated
He played a beautiful melody using only the G-string
Which is the very well-known music piece called " Air on the G-string"
Guang Xi responds:
"So the story tells us we must be careful of who puts on a fake face"
Then Mu Cheng replies:
"No, The story tells us that no matter how difficult life gets;
you can still play the most touchy melody.
From then on whenever there are times when I think I can't withstand,
I will think of Air on the G-string.
More inspirational quotes to coming up~=)
You are better than the best
Friday, March 19, 2010 11:46 PM
~You are better than the best~
I m always looking forward to fri & weekends
i guess every girl with a bf in NS feels the same..
we watched "Remember me"
it's pretty ok just that u will really need to think hard
to really understand what the movie is abt
some parts actually have no link n pretty boring=.=
i guess what the movie is talking abt is
living ur life passionately and treasuring everyday of ur life..
because u will nv know when u gonna die..
and u shdn't have any regrets when u die
if there are things u need to do or want to do..do it!
but easier said than done isit?
i like the lead actress, Emilie de Ravin's blue eyes
there are so pretty n alluring..
I don't wanna go back to sch next week! boohoo!!
can't wait for june holidays to faster come~
Happy birthday mom~
Thursday, March 18, 2010 10:04 PM
Today we celebrated mom's birthday
together with my brother's gf n my little cousin.
My litte cousin, ethan came over to stay at our hse
for this week, over the sch holidays
as his parents are away overseas...
and with him ard, the hse become more lively
filled with laughter, mom's nagging, n his endless talking.
it has become noisy~
and i had become his tuition teacher=.=
there goes my one wk of sch holidays~
with no peace
but it's pretty nice n fun having a little one ard
he adds joys n laughter by the funny things
he do and say~
Just because i appear happy, doesn't mean everythings ok
Just because i'm quiet, doesn't mean I don't want to talk to you~
there are some days i just wan to do nothing at all
there are days where i m moody for no reason
there are days i just dun feel like talking
there are days i can't cheer u up or brighten up ur day,
when i can't even brighten my own
there are days when i m nt the cheerful me
there are days i just wan u to cheer me up~
I have my down days..
when i just need u~
more than u need me...
to make my day alright~
='(((((((((
Ants/ Penguins
Saturday, March 13, 2010 10:20 PM
today was total madness..
was squeezing with people at IT fair n charles n keith warehouse sale..
there were ALOT ALOT of people..
the two places was filled with people
it's like an army of ants..
LOL..and all walking like penguins..
but was lucky tht beloved's friend, Ivan drove to the two places...
who he was pretty frustrated because the bad traffic & parking lots were full!
but i really had a good laughs
because beloved n him are such funny jokers
so we went there
charles n keith i went away empty handed
because all the nice shoes dun have my size=(
ohoh..i bump into bestie there surprisingly..
this is wat i call fate..haha
at IT fair..it was crazy..i couldn't even breathe...
so many people taller than me stealing my oxygen..
beloved n I bought a new camera...n i m totally in love with it..
Canon Ixus 105.. (brown)
(this pic is taken by our new camera..very clear isit?)
Afterwhich had dinner at Crystal Jade La mian xiao long bao
because i m a lover of xiao long bao..hehe
I saw this quote somewhere i thought it was pretty meaningful
P.S. I love this quote: " Don't be too hard on urself, be true to urself."
i like the lead actress, Emilie de Ravin's blue eyes
