Life is wonderful..

exhausted

Tuesday, June 30, 2009 9:30 PM

Fun,Laughter,Joy!!!!

2:51 PM

hey guys,

great recommandation!
watch We got married or it's another title is Star wedding
it's super nice and super funny
found out about it through my friend
it's a korean variety show
where korean actresses and actors
pair up and live as husband and wife
act and suppose perform task together..
and u will watch all the funny things tht
happen during the process
i love the show!
every ep is nice
youtube has, but it's very hard to search
my soju is better, it's very organised
dun need to search..CLICK BELOW for link!
http://www.mysoju.com/we-got-married/

this week is back to school
so far is pretty good
the school has become lively again
with the students around
only thing is to wake up super early!
have to reach school at 6.30!haiz

last Sat went meet my poly girlfriends
and had great fun at minds cafe
and Sunday had swmming lessons
mr penguin is my coach=)

fun, laughter & Joy

p.s. Appreciate what u have and the people around u. is one thing i learn from one of my student who lost his father in a accident when he was in Pri 1. and now in Pri 5 his mother is recently diagnosed with 4 th stage cancer and can't live longer than one month . Many people thought it was just a normal backache, till it turned worse and unbearable..and was admitted to hospital a week ago. And nw the deadly truth is out and has to be hidden from the child.. because he is closest to his mother. He has been taking care of his mother and all the household cores all these while she was ill all these while . And i bet it must have pained him to see his mother suffering and nw it will destroy him to learn of the deadly truth. A young boy, wonders how is he going to handle to lost of his mother=( praying tht a miracle will happen..all i could do..is do whatever i can for him..and give him the support he need.='(

Thankful

Wednesday, June 24, 2009 8:45 PM

this week is super tiring!!!
because of the H1N1 thingy..

i this week everyday have to go back to school to do thing.

And my mentor is giving me more work to do

preparing worksheets for the students

And next wk sch is going to reopen

and sch have to do all the screening precautions..

it means it's going back to the days waking up at 5plus am everyday=(
My poor hands and legs are also suffering,

the rash on my skin is itchy and it's getting more and worse=(

but i am still thankful i had my june holidays

enjoyed spending time with mr penguin!!

and i also have done the list of things i wanted to do!!

1)watched the movies i want to watch (watch many movies)

2)went to Sentosa with my church youths

3)went ice-skating with my beloved=)

babylove, he's the man!hee<3

4)watched finish the korean drama, boys over flowers(花より男子)

6)And and went shopping!but though went too many places,

there didn't have any nice clothes to buy=(

and like nt much sales lei..

but but..

i still haven't found tuition!=( hope can find soon. den can earn more money to save!

i am looking forward to meeting my dear friends!

1) This sat 24 June, meeting poly girlfriends, mind's cafe!

2) The following sat 4th July, Queena's 21st birthday

Bestie and sheryl will be there too..hoho
3) and week after next sat 11th July,

meeting sheryl sweetie=)

p.s. I am thankful for my prince charming=)

deep thoughts..

Saturday, June 20, 2009 10:18 AM

feeling super emo nw...
i dont know why..
but there is just an feeling of emptiness within me..
and the feeling just sux..
i just wanna blog it out..

dunno whether it was because crying too much while
watchin the korean drama 花より男子(boys over flowers),
or was it because i didn't have enough sleep
chionged through the night to watch finish the serial,
because want to see the happy ending to the story..
tht i slept at 6.30am and only 2 hrs of sleep.
but to my disappointment, the ending to the show suxz!

or maybe it is not because of tht...
its the feeling when i felt when i was younger
long time did not have the feeling
i stopped feeling tht way after i believe in christ
but recently the feeling just reoccurred
because of the issue of moving out..
it felt like there is missing piece in my life,
or it feels like a hole in my heart..
something which i really yearn for..
as a child i use to wake up crying, feeling
life is meaningless and empty because of tht
feeling tht there is no one dear to me in this world
i have no one to depend on..
i am jealous of some of friends around me
they have a love which i can never experience or can
ever have..
I wish things would change but it never did..
nothing changed..
friends become my purpose of living and only support n comfort
i hated staying home..many times i felt like running away
but i had nothing..or didn't have the ability to do so..
eventhough i wished i would faster grow up
and breakaway from the miserable place
in my heart..there is a longing to have a FAMILY.
i never know what is a mother's or a father's love
my presence is just like dust.
the house i stay in doesn't feels like home
it's just a big house supported by walls..
even nw when i have grown up..
i could move out..
maybe it would be better..
maybe my mother will be better without me..
we will be happier..
but i will be all alone..
after 21 years of their nagging, mother's control, having unwanted,
feeling not belonged...
it's weird,to not have it anymore...
like i am use to it already...

a family love i so badly yearn for='(

but on positive note,
there is a new purpose and strength to live for
my future with mr penguin!!
i will work hard!!

off to swimming!mr penguin is going to teach me swimming!=)
miss you all my friends...<3

寂寞光年- 刘力扬

Monday, June 8, 2009 1:06 PM

刘力扬 - 寂寞光年

是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己横行
忘了我也值得被关心
一双手一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛
漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫
漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹
是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴
天灰了快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里
忘了我也配被人在意
一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空
精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊
漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想有拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫
漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹
那是谁的温柔留在我的小手
微不足道却那么重
漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没
整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走
带我离开空洞的星球
还有什么值得追求
还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由

Changes like a wind

Tuesday, June 2, 2009 9:58 AM

it's been a long time since i post..
so what's been happening?
yesterday just went to dye my hair to warm brown and cut my fringe to bangs at kimage..kinda like my new look..

sun, met up with my bestie at westmall..she is gonna be very very busy from now..so may not get to see her anytime soon,gonna miss her!..JiA you with your work gal=)hope u have lot's of fun and meet many many special people=)recently besides meeting my poly girlfriends and secondary friends on special occassions or events..i feel like my only closest friend is babylove and bestie..besides that...dunno where my friends have gone to...hmm...ya..i have a sad social life..but i am glad i have babylove who is there for me and who is so understanding and always help me with my problems>.<..and have a bestie whom i can confide in for advise=)i guess i am a blessed gal afterall=)

And talking about my new job,I have been working as a teacher for over month and coming to 2 months already(time really flys isit it?)..learned pretty much things about kids and how to handle them..been teaching two Pri 5 classes..but most of the time at one of the classes,which is my mentor's class.Sometimes i will get a chance to teach infront of the class alone, sometimes i just help mentor and the other teacher by teaching the weaker students.Or students who never do their homework or corrections will be sent to me and i will have make sure they do their work..

the kids,all i have to say is..they are really really interesting..haha..they things they say, the actions they do..sometimes can really make me laugh...every one of them has different personality, so the method u handle them also has to be different..some kids are slower in learning, so they need much extra help...some are clever but they are just lazy to bone, so u need to scold them to wake them up..some will hate u if u scold them..so ya..it's really hard!so much to learn about teaching..but i love what i am doing, i love the kids, though it's not going to be busy but it is all worth it=)

but one problem about me is that i am not fierce?even the kids say so...i will always remember the first few days when i stood infront of the whole class to teach, some of the kids started talking..so i just told the class nicely to stop talking..but they continued with their own conversations. Then some kids infront told me these
"Ms seah, how come u not fierce one, u must scream and shout at them"
"ya, u should bang the table and use the ruler slam the board"
"Ms seah, are u going to cry?"
even this kid, Josiah came infront and said, "Ms seah, i help u control the class..."
"Class!QUIET!!"
lol..the students teaching me how to be fierce?hmm..LAuGH OUT LOUD
i dun want to be a teacher who everone is afraid of, but a teacher whom they respect and easily confide in..that is something i m still learning to achieve!

Now is June hoidays!!!that's something good about being a teacher=)So if any of u is free, ask me out!hee...babylove is sweet, he going to pei me during these period..he's going in to army in Oct..so i gonna spend and treasure every min i have with him.

There are some things i wanna do this June holidays!
1)do my hair(done)
2)GO bEACH!get some sun!
3)hmm..ice-skating!
4)Lot's of nice movies i wanna watch
4)Find tution to give..(anyone have intro? pls help me)
5)Grest singapore sale is here!Shopping!buy buy buy!oops=X