today morning had a bad start of the day
mom started being mean to me n started sayin nasty things
when i did nOthing wrong at all.???.grrrr...
but i jus kept quiet..
because i could probably understand hw down n upset she was..
guess she was transferring the stress n anger frm the night before ..
unto to me???
hrs before she n bro had a quarrel for like over 3hrs???
loud sounds filled the house till 3am n disrupted my sleep>.<
bro didn't do anything wrong and mom was being controlling again
bro tried to find out what's e problem so he was could reason with her..
but as usual...mom is always like being unreasonable n nt being sensible??
jumping to conclusions everytime,letting her old-fashion thoughts run her wild??
in the end..bro was tired and frustrated with reasoning with her...
tis morning..i didn't want to wake up..
as could feel the tension tht was in the hse..
but i forced myself to face the day>.<
mom was cursing n swearing to herself...
could feel as if anything irritate her,she will explode like a bomb
and burn u alive..lol
dad didn't help improve the situation neither...he was worse..
he almost add oil to my mother..makin her want to explode>.<
sayin those things tht were of no logic n no use..
saying my mom over small things???=.=
me???the girl who is considered a "small" in the house
jus kept quiet..trying my best nt to cause any more tension..
because no one in the house cares what i say anyway>.<
but the agony kills me..
my "family" is so so far frm being like a family..
it isn't together as one..but with four individuals=(
this is the "family" i grow up in..
but i am still hopin one day...
tht love in the family still exist????
=( X 100
