Life is wonderful..

Monday, March 31, 2008 9:09 PM

everyday feel like i m jus chasing after the wind

with no direction or goal..

jus running n running aimlessly..

without even knowing where i m headin to

everyday ends jus the same..

suddenly feels so tired..

reflectin what hv i been doin these days

jus wasting my life away,secs,mins n hrs..

Wednesday, March 26, 2008 11:03 PM

evening went to woodlands libary..

it's been a looong time since i been to a libary..lol

the last time was to study together with frenz..

nw lookin at other ppl study..

i realise it's all in the past ler..

i m no longer a student=(

somehow it's bittersweet feeling..

den dear come meet me after his work at 8pm..

i used his card to borrow a book..hee>.<

we went kfc eat..

after tht actually we wan go play "bumper car" de

because few weeks ago

we found out woodland the pasa malam got...

bumper car is so hard to find in singapore nowdays...

so wanted to go play veri long le

bUt so sway..today we went it's nt open..

think it's packing n moving ler>.<

sian n sad..

bUt we went archade play=)

nw my fav game at archade is the basketball aiming de..

because i remember me n dear

before we were together we played tht game

and happen something tht i will nv forget

we continously played alot of rounds

shoot alot of balls..more than 600balls

because dear put the tapz card in his pocket

den the machine kept scanning the card

without us knowing>.<

haha..

i changed my blog song..

"tiAmo" means "i love u" in Italian..

I LOVE MY DEAR!=)

more n more each day..

Money is IMPORTANT!but it's nt everything..

11:17 AM

i wish i had alot of mOney!!!!

nOt because i want to be rich..

bUt so that i dun neEd to worry about many things..

nO need worry abt nt enough to pay my bills,

nt enough money for my daily expenses..

everyday is like calculating how much money

i need to limit myself to spending..

even eat also hv to look at the price first...

want to buy things i wan also can't buy...

no matter how hard i try to avoid the issue of money

it's has always been a big source of problem in my life..

i hated money..because my parents always quarrel because of it

to them,money is like everything...

even when they look at people,they will see if he's rich or poor

which i grow up hating their perspective

but no matter how much i hated money

many times i always needed it so much..

because without money..

ther is many things u can't do n can't have...

it's so true..=(

even frm a young age..i already started worryin abt money

many times i was penniless

the feeling really suxz..it feels really insecure..

the worse feeling is when ur parents don't bother or care..

they are able to support u but they dun wan to..

they rather spent money on big thing tht are nt neccessary

but jus to show off..

its even worse when u borrow frm them

and they scold u n make u feel as if u owe them a big debt...

but maybe it's through tis problems..i learnt many things

i learnt the value of money..nt to anyhow spent..

experience the feeling of being poor to help the ones in need

i learnt to be independant...

to use my own hands to earn my own money

and also thankful to God for bringin me through

all the financial difficulities i faced in many ways=)

i learnt to be easily content with what i have...

jus havin what is needed..

so right nw..

what i want to do is:

i want to get faster find a good job with goOd pay!!!!

nO need to be a high pay but maybe jus a good pay

tht is enough for me to spend n some extras to save up...

Saturday, March 22, 2008 9:13 PM

went for church worship practice in the afternoon
dear came to accompany me=)
after tht,we went to eat..
den accompany dear go cut hair at clementi
i think dear loOks goOd in his new hairstyle
so HANDSOME!!!..lol..=D

10:35 AM

today morning had a bad start of the day
mom started being mean to me n started sayin nasty things
when i did nOthing wrong at all.???.grrrr...
but i jus kept quiet..
because i could probably understand hw down n upset she was..
guess she was transferring the stress n anger frm the night before ..
unto to me???
hrs before she n bro had a quarrel for like over 3hrs???
loud sounds filled the house till 3am n disrupted my sleep>.<
bro didn't do anything wrong and mom was being controlling again
bro tried to find out what's e problem so he was could reason with her..
but as usual...mom is always like being unreasonable n nt being sensible??
jumping to conclusions everytime,letting her old-fashion thoughts run her wild??
in the end..bro was tired and frustrated with reasoning with her...
tis morning..i didn't want to wake up..
as could feel the tension tht was in the hse..
but i forced myself to face the day>.<
mom was cursing n swearing to herself...
could feel as if anything irritate her,she will explode like a bomb
and burn u alive..lol
dad didn't help improve the situation neither...he was worse..
he almost add oil to my mother..makin her want to explode>.<
sayin those things tht were of no logic n no use..
saying my mom over small things???=.=
me???the girl who is considered a "small" in the house
jus kept quiet..trying my best nt to cause any more tension..
because no one in the house cares what i say anyway>.<
but the agony kills me..
my "family" is so so far frm being like a family..
it isn't together as one..but with four individuals=(
this is the "family" i grow up in..
but i am still hopin one day...
tht love in the family still exist????
=( X 100

Thursday, March 20, 2008 1:53 PM

CHOCOLATE!!!

today woke up...

8.15a.m...

the first thing on my mind was..

to make this for dear...

melted baking chocolate

fresh strawberries

add them both together equals to tis=)these are for mom n dad

these are for dear=)

had some remainin chocolate so i made these..

yummy=)

so what hv i been doin???
lately been working part-time at guardian
my free time..??is stay at home n rot..
do housework
look for jobs
chat online with dear..
watched some drama on crunchyroll..
lately jus finish watching two korean dramas..
"snOw white" n "tree of heaven"..
bOth the shows got a actor i like
he's so suai n cute>.< LEE WAN!!!

cast of "snow white"
it's a pretty funny..bUt heart-breaking at some parts
but den..it's abit draggy>.<

main leads of "tree of heaven"
tis drama ar..veri touching n romantic
but veri sad the ending..
the guy made alot of sacrifices for the girl..
even donated the heart to the girl n died..
so sad>.<

LEE WAN!!!!

boyish charm>.<

sporty and sunshine guy
..my fav..>.<

suai ma!!??>.<

an adv he did with his sis>.<

sporty

but but but

my dear is the best in my heart=P

Tuesday, March 18, 2008 2:27 PM

Recipe

for

coOkin Japanese curry rice

frm ling

14 march,

lingling,jun chuan n me

we went over ling hse to learn how to cook

first,slice the meat into cubes

skin the carrots n boil it till it's soft

and cut it into cube size

do the same for the potato>.<

cook the chicken first

den add the sauce

den the carrot n potato

tata...there u go...Japanese curry rice

pretty easy!!!

afterwhich,we played monopoly

in the end i went bankrupt..lol

Sunday, March 16, 2008 7:38 PM

8 march (sat)

SENTOSA

dear..suAi>.<

moving clouds..

drawn by me=)

drawn by dear=)

our castle

our land..lol

after playin sand n water

we went to watch animal show

got monkey,got snake,got eagle,parrot,dog..

n some birds forget their name ler..

veri nice parrot

nice doggy=)

the dog ignore us

finally the dog is in good pose..

bUt a boyboy block the camera.. grrr

b'day week

Friday, March 14, 2008 11:34 PM

26th Feb

2 big candles..20 yr old already.. >.<

graduation??haha

from university of life...haha..

best fren kel=)

thinkin of what to wish for..hmm..so many>.<

finally..there's one!wish,pls come true>.<

Yay..claps..the candles is blown..so happi>.<

it's all mine..lol

PHOTO SECTION

so happi can individual photo with them

nv take before=)

KELYN

the closest fren i had since sec 2

we went to express together..

we went to the unexpectedly went to same poly n course!!

we went through the joy n pain together..

she was always there to lend a helping hand

and a listening ear to me

so glad i had a fren like her=)

SHARILYN

aka nurturtur

cute and sweet personality..

like sweety pie

she treats people veri goOd de wor..

But she can "bite" when gets angry>.<

she always lid a smile on my face...

though i dun talk to her much..

somehow she has a special "magnet"

draws people to her..even me..haha

KENNETH

i predict he makes a good family man and husband

lol..

always thinking of how to yang sharilyn>.<

out-going, likes to be organised n have things planned all nicely..

JING YUAN

*he was forced to take tis pic*=X

he seems like a bad guy in the outside

bUt he is actually "deep" in the inside..

and he can be really a nice guy..

he speaks what he thinks..

which is goOd n also bad..

he takes his stands unless u can prove him wrong

WEI CHIN

the most easy-goin guy i ever known?

lol..oh ya..he craps alot..=X

SHAWNRICK

the "big guy"

he ar..last time like a kid tht nv grows up..

he's better nw?i dunnO..

erm..i mean nv grow up is the brains..nt the size..=X

JEREMY

the smart guy..

he is clever..n jus like jing yuan..

he's "deep"=X

oh..he loOks like one of the korean actor

us..

lol

girls..

27th Feb

dear didn't work

he took mc..was sick

But he meet me to celebrate my birthday

so happy

went vivo..

we got free tickets frm his brother

so we went to watch AH LONG movie

the movie veri veri funny=)

p.s.feel like the happiest girl on earth..hee

2nd March

after church..

jia jul,gor solomon,small jeremiah,dear n me went vivo

went carls jr to eat lunch

eat till veri full

den they suppose me with this

jis jul buy de..so nice

Happi=)

cakes..the strawberry got pokadots..

My birthday gifts

dear wrapped de..first time=)

dear give me de...i love it!

my fav!..frm my sec frenz..musical ball
with music "memories"!

Love it!

labels:we may meet many friends in life,

but once in a while,

there are those that leave footprints in our heart=)