sometimes eventhough u r right beside me..i feel yr heart is miles away..feel like i m standing alone.sometimes i wish i could hold u tight till this fear n insecurity goes away.sometimes i wish i could get angry at u when i m mad...but yet it is impossible to do so..because i m afraid to hurt u n i love u so..sometimes i hate myself for bein so "strong".even when i m already really tired n drained..i choose to be "strong" for u and make u happy..i choose to bright up yr day even when i can't bright up my own..because i am afraid to make u worry..n u hv enough problems of yr own

maybe is this character in me since young..i am dependant on myself n will hide all my pains n hurts to myself....so that no one sees the 'weak" me..to me..it's pointless shownin my emotions because it benefits no one if it's bad, it's nothing ppl can do to ease the pain or solve the problem..=(