Life is wonderful..

Thursday, November 22, 2007 12:05 AM

pictUres piCures pictures pictures

suppose to be tatoo of three ultraman and one bad character

but the tatoo was lousy

loOked mOre like "bruised"

>.<

this is funny but kinda true

cute picture

(if love wAs jUs sO simple and innocence)

i wiSh i had a shOulder to lean on too>.<

if i cAn mAke a wiSh riGht nw..

jUs One..

i wiSh fOr ..

A HAPPY FAMILY

signifiance(status),self-wOrth,security is what i yearn for so mUch,because i feel like i have none.

i wish fOr acceptance,lOve n secUrity frm my fAmily..because i can't feel it..

i feel all alone,i can't feel the family bond nor love..

i jUs cAn't help it..sOmetimes i hAte myself sO much so much,because i feel it's all my fault

i choose to hate myself bacause i can't get things right

i feel rejected n unaccepted,i feel insecure,unloved..

i feel very sorry to God..i am feelin all tis shit again

i want to love my family,i yearn for closeness n concern n nOt controlling..

living all tis years with them,i told myself i don't want to be like them..

it's even sadder to say,friends are even closer to me than my family..

i thank GOd for blessing me friends.

friends are there for me in times of need,friends are the reasons for my smile

friends are the motivation tht i am surviving till today..

i don't need a big house to stay in..i don't need riches

all i wan is parents who care n love,

i rather stay poor,bUt have parents tht is there for me and they make me feel i m special n loved

even if i starve to death,i will die happy..

even with myself,i can't accept myself,low self-esteem..

because they make me feel like i dun deserve anything

i m jus so tired,i wish i would jus fade away..

everytime it's easy for me to get over with things..easy to forget..

i tell myself i have to be happyn positive..life still goes on..

there are other things tht i can treasure ..like my frenz..

but deep inside my heart is still emptiness tht nO man can fill..

underneath tht smile is a bleeding heart..

bUt smiles that i give to ppl around me is sincere and true

bacause i want the people around me to be happy=)

i need u,GOD

i need u to give me strngth,love and teach me ..