Life is wonderful..

Friday, October 26, 2007 11:40 PM

i m happy happy happy

frenz brightens up everyday of my life

i lOve my frenz

lately,

mom and me jus can't seem to communicate

but tis tues, we had a goOd talk

we finally manage to get into good terms

~~~hOpe this will last~~~

tis week was really busy

busy working( mon n tues evenings)

busy doing sch assigment n report

busy with myself

busy wif frenz problms

~~phew~

tmr is finally weekendz!!

i nt wOrkin tmr!!

YAY!!=D

hugz

"be expressive of yr feelingz,don't suppress it in yr heart"

"be true n sincere to yrself n the peOple ard u"

Wednesday, October 24, 2007 8:06 PM

lOve tis sOng lOtz..
it really speaks of my feelings n thoughts>.<

曲名：笨蛋歌手：金莎&林俊杰

莎 : 很多时候我因为怕受伤

所以就选择先放弃

我更因我太爱自由

所以明明渴望爱情

却依然不知怎样让别人进入我的世界

杰 : 难道我不能给你百分百的信心吗?

你知道我一直有多在乎你。

莎 : 我珍惜这份安全感

却又担心他的牺牲

所以每天的感觉还是孤独的我

还是需要一个人

一个人想一想。

唱 :冰箱結霜咖啡滾燙煮不好最簡單的早餐

我的生活是一團混亂維持單身感覺茫然

喜不喜歡習不習慣我總是說不出個答案

一個人來又一個人往怎麼讓他流連忘返

我不想當笨蛋我在牆上寫滿渴望

我可以大哭一場房間還是空空蕩蕩

我絕對不逞強該屬於我任其自然

可是我也要安全感在某個適當程度的主張

縱然是了解眼光也是溫暖

杰 : 这段日子你真的过得好吗？

莎 : 没有你的早晨加了糖的咖啡也是苦的

杰 : 当时我尊重你的要求所以我离开

但这段日子你不开心所以我就回来了

莎 : 也许我连自己要什么我也不知道

我一个人游游荡荡自由久了也没有了目标

梦里醒来发现墙上已经不自觉写满了你的名字

杰 : 单身是茫然恋爱也彷徨

我明白

所以我用时间去证明了这颗心

不会因为你曾经的放弃而改变

唱 : 每个早上都想赖床

没有梦是最让人沮丧

我的眼睛盯着天花板也跑不出任何对象

chorus

莎 : 难道我真的是个笨蛋一直错过已经在身边的幸福

杰 : 我们只是用时间找到了我们需要什么

时间让我们认识了自己 也肯定了对方

莎 : 因为你让我知道真正的幸福是什么

·°★·°∴° ☆．·°∴°．☆°★°∴°

p.s. i lOve my new hAir cut n colour >.<

Saturday, October 20, 2007 11:15 PM

fri,worked

tOday,worked..

i really hv nO mood for anything..

feel like i m jus rottin my life away..

sch started but i m still in holiday mood

i nO longer loOked forward to sch like i used to..

the motivation i use to hv for goin to sch was my frenz..

but nw...i m nt sure anymore

maybe i shd be serious abt sch..

n start planning for my future????

but the oni thing i feel nw is meaningful?

WORKING!!

it keeps me busy

it's give mE INCOME!!

my mind has been tormenting me lately..

feel lost,empty,drained..

many things tht i thought was simple become complicated..

lately the world i use to know,

has turned cold,ulgy n complicated..

last time i nv saw these things..

maybe they existed but jus tht i nv noticed them..

even i find myself changed jus to fit myself in..

but i dun wan to n i hate the change in me...

maybe i wished i nv grow up.

i realised growing up is a headache..

lately i m in love with BRIGHT RED

it's my new fav.colour!!!

i m also begining to like white instead of black

i finally brought a new wallet!!

it's white!!hehe..

10:06 PM

thurs(17/10)
the poorest day..
was totally broke

hvn't get my attachment pay=(

thank God for friends=)

whO lend me mOney..

lesson was boring..

after sch

celebrate wei boon birthday

siti,jc,jr,jy,wh,roger,eugene,ling,lingling,mk,n me

we went vivo-city..

ate at "fig n olive"

after which surpised him with a birthday cake..

lovely cheese cake

birthday boy

loving couple

Wednesday, October 17, 2007 8:35 PM

je me déteste!!!

fat,ugly,stupid,silly,blur..

5:37 PM

MONDAY(15/10)

back to sch..mixed feelings..

didn't feel like studying..

sch ended 12..

went westmall with classmates

den a few of us went to watch RESIDENT EVIL 3

jc,jan,eugene,zy,hafiz,jr

the movie was alright

i wld rate it 7/10?

i heart was like pumping during the movie

but most of the time,

i was shocked by the sound..

TUESDAY(16/10)

went sch to see our supervior,sammi abt our fyp,

damnz..we really hv lotz we need to do..

tis sem really mus chiong,can't slack anymore..

jia you!!!

after which,me,ling n jc went imm..

eat n shop ard

shop for presentz for janice..

i went back guardian for a while,

i m finally goin back to work..>.<

TODAY!!!

3 hr break,

me n my classmates went al-almeen

it's been a long time since all of us actully went to eat together..

after which,guys went play pool,

girls went see clothes at our familiar store @ beauty world

I HATE PROJECTZ!!!!

it causes hurt feelings=(

i feel i m a jerk

i m a sucker..

but do i hv a choice?

yes,i know do hv..

i could make a choice but i m afraid to take the risk..

in the end i let fear defeat me,

n let my conscience haunt me

but i myself is a weak,

hw am i suppose to sacrifice to be an hero?

i can nv be tht..

i wish i could help u

but i can't even help myself...

all tis jus suxz..is ther anyway out??

someone pls tell me wat to do??

can ther be happy endings for all???

or maybe i shd jus gif up all tht i hv?

i hate myself today for being such a loser!!

i m sorry..

i feel so helpless

p.s happy endings are possible but nv guaranteed..

Sunday, October 14, 2007 8:40 PM

i don't know myself..

what do i wan??

i wan nothing at all..

everything is jus so meaningless..

i feel like i hv everything..but yet feels like i hv nothing at all..

everything is so near me,but yet it feels so far..

friends,family,work,sch,money,love,peace,joy,fun..

i dunno..

不想拥有，因為害怕失去。。会害怕心动后会心痛。。

i'm sorry..

i m an escapist when i can't face my real feelings..

but do u know hw my heart breaks n hurtz??

but i rather hurt my own..

6:44 PM

my sweet little "sister"

the small boy is JOHN..

i see him grow up..from in his mother womb to a baby to now..

i remember last time,secondary sch days

i always stay at aunty elizabeth hse..

i used to baby-sit n play with him..

takin care of him and his sister,faith

teachin him ABCs

watchin barney n aiyoyo vcds with them..

memories..

a very smart boy but sometimes bein too clever isn't too good..=X

5:55 PM

SAT(13/10)
went church for worship practice as usual..

den after tht went aunty sarh hse

they were doin house-keepin..

o.O
so i helped..

aunty sarah was clearly her files n stuff

n i found something really cool..

can u guess what this is below???

IT'S A MINI-FLOPPY DISK!!!!!

it's used in the 1990s when computers were kinda alien..it's a size of a CD cover,but it's veri thin..i guess u can nv see any of this nw..

den aunty sarah was sayin in the past,when computer was first introduced,they were bulky n big!!it wasn't easy to use as nw..wat file,open,browse..blar blar

u actually gotta remember all the steps n the sophisticated codes for every function!!!if u dunno the codes u can't operate!!!wow..i m so thankful tht i wasn't living in those times sa..

evening,jeremiah and i went cycling!!!

was really fun..because i been wantin very long to do some sportz!!!we cycled for a veri long distance..we even cycled to two places buy food back aunty sarah hse for dinner.

we were cycling to the park,n it's where blur me fall dwn!!!! as we were cycling pass the residential hses..we heard someone playin the violin...very nice wor..the melody..so i was kinda curious to see who was playin..so i tried to see..den without knowing..*bang*i banged into the handdrills at the side of a drain..-.-...haiz..i didn't notice my bicycle actually swayed to my right a little i was lookin..haiz..i hv to be more alert!!!

dinner was delicious!!yummy..had my fav BBQ chicken!!!my all-time fav..n also hor-fun!!aunty Lydia they all went to sent micheal home..while jeremiah n i stayed home..

den aunty lydia called back n said she was buyin BBQ chicken us for supper=D..ask us to nt slp first..but i was so bored n tired tht i fall alseep=X so had BBQ chicken for sun morning breakfast..haha

i love BBQ chicken!!!!

5:23 PM

after the last day at our attachment,

lingling,jun chuan,ling n i went marina sq

we went walk walk

shop shop,
den chill at a cafe "fin"

the food was quite good..

except it's "southern chicken wing"

it's taste jus any orginary fried chicken wing la..

dunno why they name it "southern-.-

lingling n ling

me n jun chun

mE!!!!!=D

all was well till..

when we were walking out of the cafe.

i fall!!!i fall completely to the ground!!

spained my ankle alittle because of my heels..

damn it..i was so blur to the pt..

i didn't notice the ground lvl was diff..i was steppin on a plat-form

i was suppose to step dwn..but i...haiz

wonder when will i ever cure my blurness?=(

3:17 PM

FRI (12/10)
last day of attachment!!!!!
suppOse tO bE happy bUt..

had mixed feelings..

the day started terribly bad...

the night before,i didn't sleep muCh jUs to rush do my repOrt
but guess wat???

mOrning i realised i didn't save the document after finishin..

-.-
haiz..feel like givin myself a slap on my face..
felt sO frustrated..
i didn't sleep..n in the end..i lost all tht i hv done..

so i spent my last day of my attachment at office re-dOin my report

wat a miserable day=(

after finishin gave it to my supervisor..

small boss see my report...criticize my report
make alot of mistakes

so in the end..
i still need bring home edit.
haiz..haiz..haiz..haiz..

afternoon, the company gave me n ling a small farewell
party.

but alot of staff wasn't around

feel kinda suxz..because i feel totally out of
place.
it's like i don't really know the ppl there well,feel kinda awkward

my cute supervisor n his superly messy desk!!!

Random

mE,ling wif our funny n cute supervior>.<

tis guy is my the other supervior..
don't really like him..
see his face..doesn't he look like one of the seven dwarfs in
snow white story?
the sleepy dwarf..=X hahaha

he seems to be a man of no emotionz..tht is his face expression everytime,and it doesn't change

the big boss giving me a farewell card

me and ling...
lookin at the pics,we both agree that we look fat!!

put on weight during the attachements=(

me at my desk,with my big screen computer!!=D
my computer veri big ba!!i think alot of ppl already caught me surfing net during work ba..
farewell attachmentz!!!!!

tht's a big full-stop and farewell to:

to my waking up early in e morning,8.30a.m-6pm boring office hrs,squeezing on packed buses n trains with the working crowd,boredom days of rottin ,chatting with kel on e-buddy everyday=)(thx for keepin me company everyday),eatin with ling at the boring canteen at NEA!!!

YAY..!!!i actully mAde it through my 7 weeks of attachmentz!!*clapz,clapz*

i indeed learnt alot of thingz....gettin to meet different kinds of ppl in the society n stuff..

but... i still prefer to go back sch!!!!

Thursday, October 11, 2007 11:39 PM

today after work,

me n jun chuan went westmall.

as he need to shop for gift for his supervior

n i also need to buy another box of sweets for the staffs at the other division

the mrt was damn packed..

from newton,the first train arrive and it was packed,

we couldn't even squeeze in

so we waited for the nx train

when changing to the red line at je,

there were alot of people also..

alot of working adults

in mins the train was packed,

but tis time we forced ourselves into the train..

n was flattened..so squeezy!

i guess when i start working,

i will hv to face tis kind of situation everyday..

when going to work n after work..

unless i get a car!!

tmr is finally the last day of attachments!!!=D

gosh..nw i m trying to do my final report..

it's far frm finish=X

9:22 PM

MON(8/10)

after work,met kel @ far-east to shop for sharilyn b'day present.

hopped by angie's shop.

took some pics

TUES(9/10)

after work,

went to shop for my supervisor gift,

as a token of appreciation for him teachin me

bought a mug for him,

and box full of candies for the staffs.

WED (10/10)

celebrate sharilyn birthday!!

our actual plan was to hv dinner at six,

eat at plaza hut at lucky plaza

n watch movie @ 7.15,Mr woodcook

but somehw the plan changed

some of the guys wanted to catch the 9.15 slot for the movie instead

as 7.15 was kinda rush

so in the end..

we finally settled dwn at billy bombers for dinner @ 7pm

i actually was suppose to meet jero ard 7,

as i thought they were watchin movie at 7.15,n i didn't want to..

so in the end,jero joined us..

we ate at billy bombers den walked ard heeren..

den jero n I went off first

because of my curfew..

kel,birthday gal n me>.<

people present:

jeremy,sebastian,jon,kenneth,sharilyn,shawn,wc,kel,me,jy(nt in pic)

jero(helped to take pic)

me n birthday gal(hugz)

hugz(panda)

Friday, October 5, 2007 11:59 PM

wake up feelin terrible n sucky

somehw i feel veri empty n insecure..

IS THER ANYTHING LOOKIN FORWARD TO??

i keep hv tht feeling over n over again..

i hATE it!!

why can't i stOp feelin tht way??

i wish it wOuld jus disappear fOrever...

it's killing mE!!get away frm me!!

but

THANK GOD

i felt better after reading his word..

cravings,cravings n alot of things i want to do!!

trim n dye my hair(my hair suxz)
chocolate buffet at fullerton hotel!!!>.<
shOp fOr nEw clothes fOr nx sEmester(lacKing of clOthes)
exercise!!!(shed thOse fats)
wan gO beach!!(i wan tan!!i miss the sun!!)
iCe-skating??cycling??sO lOng nv did any spOrts le=(
nOt tO fOrgEt..tO bUy nEw HP!!!

but loOkin at the list...

i really need $$$$$$ n time!!

attachment left 1 wk..den sch will start..haiz..

i guess i will chiong part-time job when sch starts..

wOrk,wOrk, earn more money,n save more money!!

i am gOin to be brOke soOn..

Thursday, October 4, 2007 9:51 PM

wEnt to bUy nEw ear-piece fOr my mp3 after wOrk

wAlkin alOne on tht crOwded streEt..

i realised i gotta start living fOr myself..

time to wake up to my senses n knOw whAt i wan..

wEnt hOme,wEnt running ..

run..run..run..

need to burn off thOse fats..

forget n throw away those feelin n thOughtz..

50 sit-ups..stAr-jumpz,stretchin..

YAy!!i finally exercised!!=D

nw watchin a new taiwan drama on youtube,

公主小妹

(romantic princess)

mains are 吴尊 & 张韶涵

very niCe!!!=D.

it's just as niCe as 换换爱

recommend go watch>.<

haiz..i m sO nt prepared for my worship leading=X

Wednesday, October 3, 2007 11:43 PM

after work,

watched Balls of Fury with jero

the movie is still ok,funny but stupidly lame

i would rate it 6/10?

feeling emo nw..

feel lost in confusion??

dun ask me why..

i don't knOw wat's the problem wif me

begining to realise i dun know nor understand myself=(

haiz

*yawnz*

i m so tired..

drained..

i dun want to think anymore..

i wish i could close my eyes to sleep

n the time wOuld jus stop

-.-

Tuesday, October 2, 2007 1:18 PM

nw in office..

jUs cAme bAck frm lunch @ LONGJOHN with LING...
heard a news frm WINNIE tht realli spoiled my moOd..

PISSED

will oni b gettin miserable $280/mth allowanCe fOr my attachmnt!!!!!!!!

paper stAted $440/mth de lor n is work mon-fri oni

but..
nw they r sayin tht amt includes sat n sunz???!!!

this is hw the company calculate our pay:
440 divide 31 days means $14 per dAy!!

$14 X nO of days we wOrk= PAY!!

LOlz..kns..$160 less la..
felt sO cheated..feel like sCreaming on tOp of my vOice..ARRGH!!
really pissed..wOrk frm 8.30am-6pm..den get tis amt..haiz..
ling,ling2,jc,winnie..we shd go on strike n riot!!>.<

dunno if sch know abt tis..wan 2 clarify wif teaCher-in-charge!!!

shdn't be so low lor,it already states tht oUr min. pay is $440!!

more angry is tht other frenz r gettin $500..sO unfair!!

but luCky my attaChment oni fOr 7wks..

or nt i think i cAn't survive..

think start sch mUs chiOng pArt-time jOb ler

$$$$$$ nt enough!!!