Monday, September 17, 2007 10:06 PM
cAn't stOp the teArs rollin dOwn...silent cry...can't stop crying..
i m really veri hurt..feel lik my heart is broken into million million pieces..tht it's wounds is bleeding...a part of me is dying..why do u alwAys hv tO humiliAte me n say thOse meanful,hurtful words tO mE..='( i wish u would love me with jus some motherly love...or show me a hint that u do love me..many times i feel unwanted..i feel like rejected..i don't feel loved..i even knOw i wasn't even wanted in the begining...='( sOmetimes i feel all alone to fight for myself in this world..don't seem to see u help me even when i m struggling...everytime i tried to tell myself u do care for me,but jUs express it in a wrong way...but i sometimes just don't understand u..u don't seem to care abt hw i feel n think..each time,u always hv to crush me into pieces tht i feel so worthless..i m veri tired..feel like i m alwAys tryin sO hard to pls u..i can't be myself infrOnt of u,i alwAys hv tO pretend tO be whAt u wan me tO be..my heart is closed up again..i had tried so hard to open up myself to ppl ard me..but somehw nw...u hurt me so badly tht i feel like isolatin myself frm everyone..i can't hv any hopes nor dreams because i dare nt hv any....i m nt a doll..i m a person with feelings n thoughts..i feel like running away..='( i wish i could jus fade away...mAybe it's all my fAult..='(
